CrazySunshineHikaru

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The Prairie Path by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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The Prairie Path

I guess it's been a while since I've had to think about how fucked up I am – since the eleventh of August to be exact, when I swallowed a bunch of pills with no real goal in what I was doing. I was just deathly afraid of being left out, of feeling like I don't belong, of being on the outside in any way. The actual situation was really innocent and didn't warrant any of the hysterics I put on, but as much as I told myself that it didn't make a difference. She was doing something that didn't involve me, and that killed me. Now the situation's decidedly different, and maybe this time it's more worthy of me feeling fucked up, but it's nowhe

High by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

New Year by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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New Year

Needless to say My year went out blue But don't mind that It's not much to you I just hate holidays (Which means I hate you) I shouldn't celebrate them But what am I to do? It's become a habit Like breathing Biting on my lip Saying a small prayer When I almost slip You've hacked my system Which has proven nearly fatal Why don't you let go already? It's a new year Let's start fresh And make it a little less blue

Second Best by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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Second Best

There's always that feeling That I'll always be Pushed to the side Put on the backburner Made to wait For more important things "See, this came up..." "I couldn't make it because..." "I'm so sorry, but..." There's always someone Who'll always be there To steal the limelight Show me up Do something that I couldn't Show me where my faults lie Make me feel inadequate And inferior, too There's always that yearning For that one person's attention And even though you know That you'll never get it You wait And hope And maybe Someday he'll look your way But he won't There's always the thought "I'm not good enough" "I'm alw

Thank You by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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Thank You

Thank you For always being there For smiling at me And showing that you care Thank you For holding me Those nights when I cried And guiding me when I couldn't see Thank you For every single kiss Every time you held my hand All those moments of bliss Thank you For listening When no one else could When I was falling For telling me you loved me And proving it too And answering honestly The questions I asked you For loving me Even when I didn't love myself Thank you

Always by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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The Prairie Path by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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High by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

New Year by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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New Year

Second Best by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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Second Best

Thank You by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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Thank You

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The Stars are Dead Tonight. by TheLastIconoclast, literature

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The Stars are Dead Tonight.

Dear Christ! What a sight to see at night. There is nothing. A nihilist night- A void that goes on for leagues. The stars are dead tonight. My lamp is lost amid The deep sea dark of That great abyss above me. It reflects my spirit. Those stars have hidden themselves In shame. They will not Look at us, our little mess. I miss them. The moon Is forced to watch us In horror. I pity her. The stars are dead tonight.

Shopping for Smiles by starsinthenightsky79, literature

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Shopping for Smiles

The smiles I send are fake and I'm surprised you don't see that see the plastic wrap still suffocating them the price tag, the bloody barcode the dust from sitting on the shelf too long. My brand is cheap – though still too much – the bare minimum all that's needed to headline normal. No one sees me shopping for happiness – it's a private business like the breaking that necessitates it. Artificial sunlight, masking the dark – that's my day but after-hours, I search for my brand of happiness. I walk the aisles alone which is how I do most things these days and sometimes I wonder am I the only one who has to buy this? Am I th

Please, forgive me. by DearPoetry, literature

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Please, forgive me.

Like lies, you said I make breathing the cosmos through rose colored lungs look easy- vertebrae stretched toward the moon. & I'm hanging my bones out to dry, carving Saturn's rings into my wrists- my star burst ankles. I swore then I'd keep my black tongued poetry & uprooted limbs far, far away from you. But, like lies, galaxies, & night fevers, you are the destination on my star map skin.

Torture by EtherealMartyr, literature

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Torture

I. I broke my heart this morning. Darling, did you feel it? I placed it, pulsing, between our bodies and watched it burst in echo to your rhythm. The clock kept ticking and it was too late to turn back. II. It attacked my body last night. Darling, did you feel it? I placed my hand on the hill and pressed it down until it was as flat as I could remember. I never liked balloon animals; there was always the chance that they would regain their original shape and forget the work their creator put into them. III. I freed myself this morning. Darling, don't you feel it

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Today by CrazySunshineHikaru, literature

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Today

It was an interesting day I can't find my ID It's cold -- I couldn't wear my coat It was still wet from yesterday I stand at the bus stop I listen to Paramore And shiver I lean against you Soft, warm, comforting I pretend to bite your shoulder -- Something understood between only us You smile I smile back Tap, tap, tap My numb fingers type Across the touch screen Words and phrases I normally say You laugh We wait at the locker for Shermari to show Did she show up? I don't remember Memory doesn't serve me well The last day before Thanksgiving break No one showed up Classes and hallways feel empty A test on a book And

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Oct 16
United States
Deviant for 17 years
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She / Her

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Name: KD
Age: 18
Status: In a relationship
Current Addictions: facebook + livejournal games, The Sims 2, photography
Short Term Goals: be finished with high school, get ready for prom and ACen
Mid Term Goals: find a job, get all of my ish together for college, get a place where I can hopefully keep a dog
Long Term Goals: move to a different country, get some writing published, be as interesting as everyone wants to think I am

Current Residence: Side 6
Favourite genre of music: just about everything =P
Favourite photographer: Zenibyfajnie
Operating System: Windows 7 Home Premium
MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch 32 GB
Favourite cartoon character: Eeyore from Winnie the Pooh
Personal Quote: "Tell him I was too fucking busy -- or vice versa."

Favourite Movies

Black Swan, V for Vendetta, For Colored Girls, Friday, The Nutty Professor

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Crystal Kay, Utada Hikaru, Gym Class Heroes, Paramore, Asian Kung-Fu Generation

Favourite Writers

Alice Walker, Shel Silverstein, Harper Lee, Robert Frost, Daniel Keyes

Favourite Games

Capcom vs. SNK 2, Kingdom Hearts, The Sims 2, Professor Layton, osu

Favourite Gaming Platform

PC, Nintendo DS, PS2, iPod Touch

Tools of the Trade

Word processor, sketchbook, pencils, Gimp and/or Photoshop, digital camera

Other Interests

anime, manga, writing, drawing, singing, acting, stand up comedy

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CrazySunshineHikaru

Nov 11, 2009

Devious Journal Entry

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STEP ONE: Spell your name with songs. Kona Yuki Asian Kids Have All the Best Moves Time Will Tell In My Room Eternally or Crazy For You All We Need Inner Universe Tuliro Love Flies You Know I'm No Good Not Fucking Around STEP TWO:  Name: Katie  Birth date: October 16  Nickname: Katie-Kat, KD, Katie-did, Katie-didn't, Katie-Mae, etc.  Eye Color: brown  Hair Color: dark brown yeah!  Zodiac Sign: Libra STEP THREE: The shoes you wore today: Airwalk  Your weaknesses: being stubborn, saying the wrong thing -Your fear(s): failing at whatever career choice I make -Your perfect

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CrazySunshineHikaru

Aug 11, 2009

Rofflewaffles

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Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right? Oh no, it did Can you really get over people easily? No. I don't let go of anything, really. Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Sort of, yeah Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? Macy's, actually =O Are there certain circumstances where cheating is okay? What kind of cheating? Cheating on a test? Or cheating on the gf/bf? Has anyone ever sang to you? Yes =O Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? Well, if a little kid counts, then yes How do you feel right now? I feel like setting fire to something... Did the last person who hurt you ever a

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CrazySunshineHikaru

Jun 11, 2009

For a Friend of a Friend

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Okay. I'm about to quote the journal of a fellow deviantart user, nommer (https://www.deviantart.com/nommer) who really, really, REALLY needs help. I currently don't have any kind of money, but if any of the few people who do have any, please consider this: About three years ago as most of you know, my mom had back surgery and is now disabled. We've been living on her disability checks for some time now, we've been fine up until about a week ago. Our engine blew up on the freeway, and it's a $3000 dollar fix, we only get $1,000 a month. One check, and that ONE check has to last us five weeks. I live with two younger sisters, myself, and my mom. My dad? No where to be f

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Talec

Feb 26, 2014

I miss talking to you :[

I found a katie on tumblr who is a giant Jerid fan and I thought she was you

IT WAS SLIGHTLY EMBARRASSING

CrazySunshineHikaru

Apr 11, 2014

OMG I'm sorry about that! I am on tumblr, but my blog is decidedly void of Jerid because I never finished Zeta Gundam. My url is keitown if you have an account and want to follow me I'm there all the time

wooooo!

Friendship Week ~<3 <3<3<3<3<3~
Send this message to aleast 15 people you care about. Including me if ya care for me. *let's see how many heart you get*

Emily-Charlie

Apr 15, 2011

_{Thank you very much for the !}

ThermadorianGrey

Apr 15, 2011

The favorite on Flicker is mucho appreciator. Gracias!

pwilliamstein

Apr 15, 2011

Thanks for the favorite!